So an update from last nights sleep trial with miss karis in her bed.... Yeah- so i definately wimped out and brought her into our room, which unfortunately did not solve the sleep issue, but did stop the crying.
I don't know what to do. I guess my real dilemma is this: I think...well I know I can handle the crying as long as I know she's alright. But.......... she could be teething. Or maybe her stomach hurts. This is what is rolling through my mind as I listened to her scream at 1am. I can go from thinking - She's fine, she'll get over it. I can handle it. To thinking......I am a horrible mother for letting her cry like this. There HAS to be SOMETHING wrong to scream like that.
And so again last night I was the 24 hour baby buffet. All my hair was felt and pulled. All my teeth touched and accounted for. Both of my eyelids were checked and rechecked opened and closed, to ensure they still worked. My nose was probed with little fingers. I was the support for several balancing acts. I was a passi detector in the dark.
And got very little snoozing done.
Even with all that said. When you wake up in the morning and see that beautiful little lady laying there smiling at you, all you can do is smile.
Yet hope remains...she went to sleep on her own tonight with out any fuss.
